cogitatio

Five years, thats how long I have been working on my undergrad degree, sure I took a year off and some of that has been part time, I dont feel like I have been wasting my time here at school, just that I dont really like school, well actually I hate it. You see the problem for me is seeing it through, I am really great at starting but dont really like to finish; you know? So for the past couple of months i have really been thinking of moving on to something new to some new challenge. The problem with that is that I havn't conquered any challenge here, I have one year left and I am looking for a way out. It really would be easier; easier for now anyhow.
Faith has two components, knowledge and will. I know that finishing my degree would be good but at the same time if I finish it then I have to move on into this great unkown region of life. That's what will is for right carrying us beyond our knowledge.
In the past I havn't really had faith I've been dealing in absolutes, in my knowledge in what I know, not just in life but with my "faith" too, in effect cheapening it to me I guess, I mean not necesarily on purpose but just as a result of how I've done things, that's why i have decided to put my foot down and finish my degree finally hooray I know, maybe who cares some say, I think though that willing ourselves through rough patches of fear and doubt in life really might be the point after all, maybe by being faithful to my five years here in Waterloo through finishing my degree will really help my "faith" become whole instead of the shell that it is propped and patched with my limited knowledge. It'll be a whole lot easier to not having to know everything thats for sure.