Monday, October 23, 2006

Hello how are you...

oooh don't scare me with your deep questions. I mean who doesn't know theanswer to this question, the answer we want to hear is the only one we will give. I mean the question dictates the answer, you can ask anyone and get the same answer the question is unthoughtful, the answer needs to respect that you dont really have time for any other answer. Right?

Something to think about

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Saturday, October 14, 2006

shattering OUR realities


Why does it hurt to be you, I mean really you. Our society has created a false reality for itself, a corporate image where the kids arn't alright but it doesn't matter as long as they look good. We lie to ourselves about who we are... and then we assume that everyone else is telling the truth about their life.
We see shiny new paint, we don't smell the rotting interior.

It hurts so much to be you, broken and in need of help, imperfect and in need of love and forgiveness, but if we don't allow others to see us, really see us, then how can we accept love? I mean we know that they love us, but they only love the us that they know right, I mean how could they really even stand to look at our rotten interior.

This is the delusion which we have created amongst ourselves, the never ending cycle of doubt and self loathing caused by our inability to share.

My desire, mey hope is that we can get beyond it to our realities and that we can get beyond the false expectations we have over ourselves, Let's be honest with each other.

I am afraid... I have wandered around in this place often I feel that I don't know where I am right now let alone where I am going, I fear burn out, of getting to tired to keep moving for what I believe in, I am afraid of bitterness, I mean why am I so tired, shouldn't it get easy sometime?

My prayer is for the renewal of our hopes, the refreshing of our bodies and minds, and a passion to continue.

I know where I am right now, I just hope that I don't forget where I am heading. If you forget where your heading you will continue to fall into these traps of our society to the detriment of many.

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